One Month

Dear Birdie:

You are now one month old!  We have had quite an eventful month as I've gotten used to being your mama and you've gotten used to being out in the world.  After several weeks of agony over whether you were gaining enough weight and stressing over supplementing, we finally got you back to birth weight!  Judging by the fit of your newborn onesies, you're continuing to grow and I'm starting to enjoy feeding you rather than worrying about if you've had enough to eat. 

You've spent so many more hours awake over the past ten days, however, when you want to nap, you usually want to nap on me.  Right now, you're snoozing in your swing - it's like you knew I wanted to write this note to you.  Yesterday, you rolled!  It was so exciting to watch!  I called Daddy right away and he was so sad to be at work and miss it.  Now, I happen to think you're a genius and are perfect in every way but I do know that babies generally don't roll until 3-4 months...so you technically didn't do the 360 degree roll, just a solid 180 from your back to your tummy.  Thankfully, you don't do it at night or during naps.  Once you got on your tummy, you flipped out.  You hate tummy time (unless its on our chests), especially with me, and will only put up with it when Daddy is around.

I look back over photos of your birth day and can't believe how that scrunchy newborn is slowly turning into a baby.  You spend most of your days in a pretty good mood and you usually only get upset when we fail to notice a dirty diaper or have gas bubbles.  I'm happy that I can stop your crying relatively easily (so glad you're not colicky!

I was scared around you at first but am slowly becoming more confident.  Motherhood isn't as instinctive as I thought it would be but the love I feel for you is as overwhelming as I imagined.  Johnson & Johnson put out a commercial this month that always seems to come on when we're nursing and makes me cry. I like to think that if you could talk, you'd tell me that we're doing fine.  Let's revisit this conversation in a few months.

Love, Mama